wonderin' why it's so damn hard to fall asleep

golden lights

long moments with the diary, yearning the old feeling of perfect love, getting my very best friend back and prayng after the most dreaded nightmare ever. my emotions inside me, they're so unreadable. feels like someone is tryin' to steal my heart.

luckily it's a golden autumn and the christmas is already looming somewhere there. i do believe the phase will get better.