wonderin' why it's so damn hard to fall asleep

golden lights

long moments with the diary, yearning the old feeling of perfect love, getting my very best friend back and prayng after the most dreaded nightmare ever. my emotions inside me, they're so unreadable. feels like someone is tryin' to steal my heart.

luckily it's a golden autumn and the christmas is already looming somewhere there. i do believe the phase will get better.

ahh what a freedom

it's been so long break of writing here, but it doesn't matter at all! nobody's gonna come here to complain. as i said once before, the blog without any followers is called freedom !!!

too hectic vacation !!!

all the time i feel like i've constantly drunk coffee. i'm always going and coming and packing my stuff again and again. of course i've had fun and thats great, but i'm afraid i don't have enough time to relax !! the best chilling days include just going somewhere without any destination or any scheduled business. i've had days like that maybe.. two or three times!? it's too little. i need rest! i abhor that my summer is so organized in advance. but it seems that my calendar doesn't allow very many rest days...

this is an unnecessery post

summer summer i love summer !!!!!! it's been so wonderfull and chillin' out time.

tomorrow we are gonna travel to karelia, i'm realy thrilled about it! with my bro, grandma, grandpa and vilho :D i have been there once before, and i remember how beautiful place it was. though this time it's gonna be more like city holiday, i still wait for it! and i realy will buy a new, my fifth matryoshka doll :0)

the moment when a strenger smiles to you

and during last days it has happend to me so many times! i wonder, that's awesome :)

spontaneous decisions

i love going to the city wihtout a destination.